Dog w/Hermangio, Desperate for Answers

[admin]

Dearest, kind Marcella

Please don’t blame yourself in any way. I think hemangiosarcoma is a big guilt disease because of the way it manifests itself so silently & sneakily, I don’t want to go into detail on here, but I too went through massive, terrible guilt with my little Millie because of what happened to her. It broke my heart completely & it is till painful to think about what she went through. Please talk to us when you feel like it in The Bridge. If it hadn’t been for you, Emberlee could have had an awful life – BECAUSE of YOU, she had a wonderful life, full of love & kindness. That is all any animal would ask for if they could talk.

Much love to you from Sheena, Worzel & Ollie

[admin]

Dear Marcella.

I just wanted to say how much I am thinking of you. This is a terribly difficult time for you, and the heartbreak you are feeling is so very raw at the moment. Feeling guilt and asking yourself all the “what ifs?” are a horrible but very natural part of grief. I have suffered terrible guilt over decisions I made about Molly’s treatment. At times, I know it can be difficult to bear. When you can though, try to remember that every decision you made, you made out of love. I have no doubt that your beautiful Emberlee had a wonderful life with you. You gave her that very precious gift.

All my love, Mary x

[Marcella]

Thank you again, Vally, Sheena, Linda and Mary for your encouraging thoughts. I am having computer issues so not always been able to come here. I am still deep in grieving, it takes me a long time to move through these times. I have a story I want to tell you about Emberlee, but not just yet. Perhaps when I am a little stronger. Meanwhile, thank you for being the loving people that you are, I am sure your animals are in heaven within that loving circle. I am glad you are in this world.

[admin]

Marcella
Don’t worry – just keep in touch when you can. You know you are in my thoughts. I am so looking forward to hearing about Emberlee when you feel like telling us – take all the time you need. We will always be here for you.
Love from all of us
Sheena, Worzel & Ollie

[admin]

Dear Marcella

Please don’t worry about not being able to get to the site often. As Sheena said, it will just be nice to hear from you as and when you can. I am sure you are still feeling terribly sad at this time, and my heart goes out to you. It takes a long time and I don’t think grief can be hurried, however much we wish it could. I would love to hear about Emberlee when you feel like it.

Much love to you, Mary and Mable x

[Marcella]

Well, kind friends, my vet finally sent a note to me saying she really missed the mark. that an ultrasound should have been done prior to the dental and she credited my account for the charges. Not really an apology but admitting her error. Doesn’t change anything. My heart is still broken and I sit here watching it rain, thinking it is tears for my Emberlee, for the sweetness and playfulness that I now only have in my heart. I will write more later, thank you again for your kind support.

[Patrice]

Marcella,
This is such bittersweet news. I don’t think knowing this makes you feel better. I wish this hadn’t happened this way.

What you did at each step of the way was done purely out of love and concern for Emberlee. I have no doubt that she felt that from you.

I hope you will find some peace of mind from this message. We are all hear to listen and comfort you whenever you want it.
my best
patrice

[Vally]

Marcella, not only was Emberlee meant to find you, perhaps she was also meant to help this vet learn something from this too.

You take care of yourself.

Love Vally