Help me. They want me to put him down.

[Raya]

Oh! And as for his test results, they keep fluctuating. We’ve been doing CBCs every other week to two weeks, it’s not really moving up or down, although with this last check his results seem to have gone down a bit. His vets have been noticing his body is destroying his baby red blood cells and talked about putting him back on cyclosporine and/or upping his prednisone dosage back to what it was, and then came to a decision that they want to try Mycophenalate 250mg per day before going back to cyclo. They noticed he’s really taking on the side effects from the pred too, not looking so good and having that ton of weight gain- I remember everyone telling me at the beginning that things were going to look a lot worse before he got better. His prednisone intake is 1.5 20mg tablets in the morning & 1 20mg tablet at night. I know the side effects have been hard on him, but I feel like maybe his decrease with the pred is what’s setting him back.. Before he was on this one, he was at 2 20mg tablets both morning and night. I remember everyone saying that all meds should be decreased by a quarter tablet at a time as well, right? Maybe we just did it too fast. :( Anyway, let me know what you think about the new med and if I should suggest we go back up to that higher dose of pred and try to wean him off slower.

[Raya]

Ah, wait.. As I’m checking it out again it actually feels like a massive swollen lump only really on his left side of his neck. I’m starting to feel like maybe it’s some kind of a bite or something. He doesn’t seem to be too bothered by it, but I have been noticing spiders crawling around in our house the last couple of days. Now I’m thinking about if I should just watch it, or try and squeeze him into the office tomorrow morning so the vet can check it out and maybe get him some antibiotics for it? It’s really swollen, and I cant tell if it’s inside the neck or just the skin. Oh, joy.. The worries never end. At least he doesn’t seem to be in pain.

[Vally]

Raya, it sounds like a lymph node to me and I would get this checked. It could be an infection is happening at the moment.

Sorry can you tell me again what dose of prednisone and how long has he been on the prednisone?

Let us know.

Vally
Xxx

[Patrice]

Raya,
Can you tell me the value on the cbc’s by date, of lymphocytes?
My best Patrice

[Raya]

Hey all..

Just wanted to let you know, in case you were wondering about Ani. He had to cross the bridge today.

It was a long few days of trying to get him to eat anything, him not being able to stand or walk on his own anymore, and his body literally seeming to start decaying overnight.

His CBC had shown improvement just days before, but something changed and he stopped eating and trying..

I have no idea how to cope.

Just thought I’d check in and let everyone know.. Thank you so much for all your help and advice through this journey with him. :( Absolutely shattered.

[Vally]

Oh Raya, I’m so so sorry. He was way too young. I know you’re a mess right now and I know how upset you are and I really have no words that will help.

Please just remember that Ani had the best life he would ever have had, because he had you to love him. Because you loved him, you had to make the hardest decision ever, and that was to give him peace.

When you ready, and it may not be for a while, visit the Bridge page. It really will help you to come to terms, but it’s too soon right now.

I’m so sorry Raya, my deepest condolences.

Vally